August 27, 2011

I hate how you’ve changed

since you’ve been practically married to this guy.

You moved in together after two months and now we barely ever talk. I don’t mean to be selfish but I miss my best friend. I am scared to say anything because you’ll just tell me I don’t understand, which I don’t. I don’t understand why you have to throw everything you have into every relationship as soon as you start dating someone. They usually turn out to be shitbags anyway. 

We keep saying ‘oh I want to come visit you!’ but I know that won’t happen anytime soon. I don’t want to come see you because he’ll just be there, the whole time. You won’t come here because you know I don’t want you to bring him. Everything is always ‘we’ these days.

I hope for your sake it works out because I really do want you to be happy and I guess I’ll just have to accept that things will never be the same. But if it doesn’t work out, you’ll complain to me and I’ll listen and be supportive and you’ll probably take a month off before doing it all again. 

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